just a notch in my bed post...

the other nite while having drinks with a couple of ppl we ended up playing a game called 'i have never'... and how it works is: u deny the truth and everyone else who has done the same thing puts up their hand.... for example i say : i have never skinny dipped. (of course i have but the point is to deny the truth) and all those who have done it put up their hands and can have a drink. u basically go round the circle. after a couple of drinks u can just imagine how the game soon turns sexual... u get to learn alot about ppl that way. yay!!! i'm not the only norty person i know.

after this we played a game of 'truth or truth' which is not as much fun, specially cos u have to direct a specific question to a specific person, also after playing the other game there's not much u dont already know... anyway... one of the girls playing was asked how many sexual partners she's had, she pipes up saying that she actually counted it the other day and its 67.5. she said that for 2yrs she thort she was lesbian and she counts girls as a half... i asked her how old she was and she's 23... one of the guys playing was asked the same question and he said its around 220- ish... maybe more... and he's 28. it made me feel sick to my stomach... do u even know all their names??? ew!!!

i'm 27 and i was disgusted in myslf wen i got to number 11... sent myself on such a guilt trip for days and weeks!!!! i just wanted to keep it at 10 for as long as possible... cos its sorta like 2 for every yr i'v been sexually active... it doenst sound quite as bad as that guy, who realistically speaking could have been sexually active for 12yrs... thats 18 girls per yr for 12yrs ... his annual figure is 5.5ppl more than the amount of ppl i've ever been with... yes that means i've been with a girl...

now i'm not sure if i should change the way i think cos apparently other ppl dont think the way i do and are pretty open about it... so it must be normal.... or should i continue holding back... ???? (cos just maybe i was just with a weird crowd)